Lexi and Jenny

I got to clerk my friends Lexi and Jenny's wedding yesterday. If I wasn't before, I sure am hella Quaker now. I feel pretty certain that it was the best wedding I've ever attended. Every thing about it was great, the ceremony was beautiful, the food was great, the music was awesome, and the dance floor packed. There was something extra, though, that made it such a wonderful afternoon and evening. I think it might have something to do with how wonderful Lexi and Jenny are, thus the people they count as friends and family are pretty amazing too, it made for an atmosphere marked by an abundance of energy and joy. I wish I was a better writer so that I could capture a bit more fully just how special it was. I think that Lexi and Jenny are such beautiful people that the beauty overflows and fills those in their presence. Everyone there was so beautiful and I felt as though I would love to sit and chat with anybody and everybody, even though I only knew about 20% of the people there. It was just the kind of experience that fills your heart with joy. Lexi and I grew up in Pacific Yearly Meeting together and she is one amazing woman. She's the kind of person who is kind and caring and full of love, yet you feel surprised and humbled when you figure out that she likes you and considers you a friend. Like, you're not quite sure how someone so good and so cool would even know you were alive, let alone think you're cool or funny. Oh and also, she might be one of the best, if not THE best, dancers I know.

Watching Lexi and Jenny together, I started wondering, do we all get that? I know other couples as well whose partnerships just seem inspiring to me. I like to think that I'll be a part of something like that one day, but sometimes I feel like God is doing everything possible to thwart the possibilities for me. Geography, timing, you name it and I think it's being used to my disadvantage. I don't mean to sound like I'm having a pity party for myself here, I just think it's an interesting thing to ponder in a cosmic sort of way. Things like this always seem very obvious and clear in hindsight, the lessons we have to learn or the hurdles we have to overcome before we say, engage in a committed relationship with perhaps THE person. It overwhelms me sometimes thinking about it because while hindsight is so clear, it can be pretty hard to determine the correct path in the moment. In my prayers I've been focusing a lot in the last month and a half on trust, specifically in God. One of the things that helps keep the anxiousness at bay is to remember that if I trust God and if I am faithful in listening to and following God where I am led, I will make the right choices for me, the ones that will get me to where I want to be in my life and create the opportunities for the relationships I want to have. All that said, I really am quite blessed in my life.